Saturday, April 4, 2009

The Energy of a Birth...

so very long ago. Has touched my life in countless ways. The little seed planted by loving parents, took, (those 66 years ago) and blossomed into an incredible human being.

A loving, patient, gentle healer is what he became. A life fully lived. A life fully loved.

But he is at the end of his journey. And this blog is not about my hubby. It's about my inner world.

Ah, but how he influenced my inner world. His supportive and loving energy allowed me to grow; to feel proud of myself; to become a cherished grandmother.

Go gently my love. I know I have held on to you too tightly. I can feel your fatigue. Your tug-of-war inside your spirit. I need to learn to release you. It is so very difficult; it is next to impossible.... but I must.

Your energy has filled me with a caring I did not know existed. Never before has anyone lifted me up to those incredible heights.

Love never dies.
Your energy will live on.
And this is the anniversary of your Birth. So we will celebrate your Birth Energy today; not your waning body energy. Your sacred breath, not your difficult, shallow breathing of ebbing lungs.

This time on Earth will pass and once again, you will Breathe freely and easily.


Anonymous said...

So very beautiful and so very sad.

Love keeps him here and Love will let him go.

Sending you both my Love,


Mary said...

A beautiful tribute. Keeping you in my prayers.


miss*R said...

wendy, what happened? or am I missing something?

I am finally getting back to normal here at inglewood, thanks for being so supportive and visiting me over the past weeks xo

Castles Crowns and Cottages said...

Oh dearest Wendy,
What beautiful words. Love does continue, doesn't it? You are certainly making each moment count, and I guess those lessons and moments come with a cost. May you find peace in your soul. Anita

Grammy said...

Tear tub at my heart as I know the release. But when I released my need to have hubby around. I was free of the worry. It will be for him to decide his fate and not me. So this took a heavy weight off me. Happy birthday to your hubby. Big hug for you. I am so glad you have that special bond of love.

Sophia Rose said...

Oh I am truly sorry Wendy~

Wendy said...

Hi Bernie, thank you.

Hi Mary, thanks for stopping by and for your kindness.

Hi Robyn, nothing drastic has happened. Hubby's health continues to decline. Every time we hit a bump in the road (an exacerbation of the disease), I think he won't last the week. Then he gets better, but never where he was before.
April 4th is his birthday and I wanted to mark the occasion. I did not think he would live to be 66. I am so happy he is still here and able to enjoy life in as far as watching T.V., reading the morning paper, playing on the computer. He does have a quality of life, but does not leave the house. When he gets sick, he sleeps most of the day and all night. That's when I feel his spirit ebbing away. He had been like that for a few days before his birthday, which is why this birthday post is tinged with sadness.

But today is a different day and he is not sleeping the day away. So things are better now. One step at a time is the way I live now. Thanks for caring.

Wendy said...

Hi Anita, thank you for your kindness and for understanding.

Hi Grammy, thanks for your understanding as well. I learn from you. Big hug back at ya.

Hi Kelly, thank you. This was supposed to be a happy birthday post. Our greatest lessons run deep.

Deborah said...

How heavy my heart is at this moment. I know not where you stand...I have difficulty just thinking of my parents moving into eternity after their 67 year marriage, let alone a husband. Love IS stronger than hatred, light IS stronger than darkness, and life IS stronger than death. My prayers spiral up to heaven as little golden threads of light, never ceasing. Sending you all my love, Deborah

Robert V. Sobczak said...

Hi Wendy, thanks for visiting my site. Just curious, what is the "water sign" that you referred to, because no, I didn't know that I had such a designation, and/or, how do you know?

The Dutchess said...

Dear Wendy,this my first visit to your blog ...How beautiful you write...
Blessing to you and your hubby..

Q said...

Dear Wendy,
This is a beautiful Birthday tribute. You have given him the best gift...your love. It is a forever love. It is a love that passes all understanding. In your love he is free.
I walk with you today.

Castles Crowns and Cottages said...

I hope all is well; may you experience a healing and peaceful Easter. ANita

Castles Crowns and Cottages said...

Dear soul,

How are you?How is your beloved husband? I hope all is well. Anita

Renee said...

Beautiful and I am so sorry.

Renee xoxo

Renee said...

Wendy I read your words over and over and over.

I'm sorry that you are losing a love that is so right. But like you said your husband's energy will live on.

I believe that to be true.

Peace dear friend.

Love Renee xoxo

Anonymous said...

Dear Wendy, I feel your heart and your love and your compassion. Be blessed in waiting.
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