Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year

This Silver Bell faerie has arrived to wish us all Happy New Year!
He is only here for one night, then fades away until next year. You must listen closely to what his little bells tell you, for they are magic! They will tinkle and whisper a secret to all who need a little guidance. And who doesn't need a little something to help them on their way?

Eat drink and be merry tonight. Enjoy your parties, your friends and family - but on the stroke of mid-night or just a split second before (if you can), listen closely...... and you will hear something very special.... just for you!

Sunday, December 28, 2008

I drew the Eagle card (from the Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams and David Carson) twice - once on the Winter Solstice and once on Christmas Eve.

Eagle is the first card of this deck. Eagle represents Spirit.
"Eagle....Fly high. Touch Great Spirit.
Share your medicine, touch me, honour me.
So that I may know you too."
Eagle medicine is the ability to live in the realm of Spirit, and yet remain connected and balanced within the realm of Earth.

"If you have pulled this symbol, Eagle is reminding you to take heart and gather your courage, for the Universe is presenting you with an opportunity to soar above the mundane levels of your life."

"If Eagle has majestically soared into your cards, you are being put on notice to reconnect with the element of Air. Air is of the mental plane, and in this instance, it is of the higher mind. Wisdom comes in many strange and curious forms and is always related to the Creative Force of the Great Spirit."

"Eagle medicine is the gift we give ourselves to remind us of the freedom of the skies. Eagle asks you to give yourself permission to legalize freedom and to follow the joy your heart desires."

Whew! Powerful message. Now I need to take the advice.

There was a year (about 5 years ago, when all I did was dream about horses or pull "horse" medicine cards. Decided to take horseback riding lessons. I'm not sure what the lesson was - I stopped riding when I went to nursing school. Would love to ride a horse and just let the wind sail through my hair and be one with the animal. One day, I will find a good teacher and get back on a horse.

For now, I will concentrate on Eagle medicine.
Love and Light to all of you sharing my journey.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Winter Solstice

Winter Solstice - the darkest, longest night of the year. From now on the Sun will start on its path closer to the Earth. The days will become gradually longer.

In ancient times, there was a celebration to welcome back the Sun and is recognized as the time when the Sun King, or the Oak King, is reborn.

For the Sun King (or the Oak King) lost His battle at Mid-Summer and went into the Underworld, capitulating to the Holly King who rules over the waning part of the year. They battled their eternal battle and, as every year from the beginning of time, the Sun King laid down his sword in defeat.

But on this day, the Winter Solstice, the Goddess prepares for His birth. The Sun King will return from the Underworld and so the Holly King waits for the new battle.

The Winter Solstice marks a time when the ancients gathered to feast and spread enough joy so that the Sun would truly want to return.

Here is a site for interesting information on the Winter Solstice and the celebration of Yule.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Angel Chimes

Every Christmas my mother would take our decorations out of the attic.
I loved the Angel Chimes best.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

I am Worthfull

I amWorthfull
I am Worthfull
I am Worthfull

This is my new affirmation.

Somewhere along the way I have come to believe I am not worth much.
I don't see my role right now as valuable.
I think I need to go out to work and make money.
Or make something of myself.

I am a "pleaser" and in doing so, I don't pay attention to my own needs.
I focus on the other person. On my partner.
And then blame them when I am unhappy.

I now recognize this pattern. It's been with me since I was a little girl.
My older brothers would fight and my parents would get mad.
I never wanted to feel that anger directed at me (no we're not talking abuse). So I did everything in my power to be good.

Even at school - I was the good one. Always. And it broke my spirit.
I tried to be like everyone else. I wanted to be like everyone else.
Who was I anyway? To let my true self out was to risk being disliked. To risk making a mistake by saying or doing the "wrong" thing.
And I can see that I still do that.

But now I have a plan.
This blog was the first step.
To be myself. To let my inner self out.
To untie the threads, the spider's web, the ropes that bind at a time.
Baby steps.